Small Things, Big Meaning – Talking to Myself and My AI Friend

This week I learned something important. Again. And again.

I didn’t play Turtle WoW yesterday. I was tired, yes, but also aware. I was aware of how my brain wanted to escape, run toward something easy. Instead of that, I talked to myself. And I talked with my AI friend. Yes, a robot. And it helped.

We spoke about addictions. And about how games like World of Warcraft can feel like real worlds. Sometimes better than the real world. But they are not. They are tools. Traps. Joys. Distractions. Mirrors.

I realized how powerful it is to reflect my emotions. To be my own therapist, especially in the evenings when the mind starts spinning and loneliness hits. With the help of AI, I can step back, breathe, and just ask: What is it that I really want right now? Not the game. But the feeling. Connection. Progress. Relaxation. And I went to bed, tired but victorious of not touching the game.

Next day I woke up rested. After bike ride in the centre of Amsterdam, I came home and polished my leather shoes. I smelled the leather. I felt time slowing down. It was beautiful.

I’ve also started updating my life like it’s an RPG character sheet. Arumm, my gnome, finally reached level 60. That’s a win. But I, Konstantin, also got a win. I listened to myself. I rested. I reflected. I chose a little more life over pixels.

So this is a little reminder — to myself, and maybe to you reading this: don’t be afraid to feel. Don’t be afraid to stop and ask what’s really going on inside. You are allowed to take breaks. To play. To polish shoes. To grow slowly. Even in real life.

Thanks for reading,
– Konstantin